i wish i was stronger

2009-12-14T14:03:00.005+08:00

shop shop shop at f21 & new look yst after work
then it was Trattoria for dinner's.
liked thier fried calamari though the service was rather...
slacked at ya kun and then homed. next restaurant will be flying chillis beside:)
oh yeah, caught new moon and couples retreat last week.
i dont understand why bella sometimes acts as if she has fitz when edward leaves her.
and couples retreat was funny ( kinda like forgetting sarah marshall)
still waiting for TGIF to open soon
and i really dislike not having a portable cameo. i didnt even have the mood to take pics yst:(
tsk. i wish i could get one for christmas. badly.

2009-12-10T22:16:00.009+08:00

outting with mummy today<3

tried "the hand burger"

now i got something to show

see this first...(covered by cloud)

and now... compare!!!

same a not???

i think the marche @313 is perfectly swiz themed(unlike vivo).

they even have kids playground!!!

make me so happy to think of switzerland:) and mst are finally over!!!!

then they have this bouquet stand outside w purple/lilac roses..so lovely:)

THE END(= HAPPY HOLS n christmas tree will be up soon.

2009-12-08T20:49:00.005+08:00

gonna make a trip down to town this thurs with mama for shopping:)
there's alr a list of things i want to get and have to do for the hol plans
-i need to complete my 3 scrapbooks of my hols which goes back to US album 07, korea 08 and swiz/it 09. ( need to go paper market)
- next i need to set up my christmas tree real soon and decide on the theme for it this christmas ( new decorations needed)
-then i wanna get presents for my loved ones and friends who wanna play gift exchange, and on top of that im gonna get a present for myself ( more shopping)
i even came up with a wish list today. its a happy but tiring day.

on the dark side, i think i better put my work schedule here so that i can rmb when exactly im free. there is still projects to do. so grp mates, i really will cancel my work days when there is a need to do projects.really hope we start on it soon too because i think no one wanna does it on christmas nor new year.(im super super kanchiong and pushy as i alr know:( pls forgive) just tell me in advance like when we wanna start (definitely after mst).

so this is what my new sup. planned for my hol work shift,it really sucks and she even claimed she gave me time for projects like i have alot of Morning shifts. who wants to do projects after 6? no one.so vexing):

12=F
13=M
14=M
15=A
16=M
17=OFF!!!
18=F
19=M
20=OFF!!!
21=M

22=F

23=M

24=OFF!!!

25=OFF!!!(had to beg)

26=OFF!!!(had to kneel and bag)

27=F

28=M

29=F

30=M

1=2/C

2=F

3=M

so this is how my hols will pass. tell me is it good/bad?

2009-12-04T20:50:00.002+08:00

cos tonight's gonna be a good night:)
i might have woke up on the right side of the bed having felt much better than the entire week.
woke up at 630 to study for gems test
its been raining almost the whole day and the mood's just great,
std chartered help out this sunday and mst next week.
went to somerset 313 yst,more shops to look forward to & wanna watch twilight soon.
feel like shopping badly:(

2009-11-23T23:11:00.002+08:00

im finally 19 today, and i guess its the time i finally updated my blog.
however, i dunno why i kept thinking that i was 20 for some reason.
well, it was not really a bdae that was over gaga.
main reason that totally spoilt my mood was sickness that took control over me for 1 whole damn week.
shivering at night, feeling hot, vomitting 3 times, feeling giddy daily,blowing non stop, ear block, teeth and gum pains, lumps in my neck,sleepless nights, coughing till my stomach has packs man(exxagerate).it just sucks.
celebrated with mom, bf, school mates, and clique.
thanks to many who have wished me.
secondly, the night before my bdae, i actually cried. seriously i feel so sad that its my bday i dont know why.
next, i wanna thank those that made the card for me, wrote on it, baked the cookies as my cake ( super creative). apologies for any eyebags caused on you guys. also wanna thank yr for coming uphill to pass me my present!! srsly love it, cos i so wanted to get a winter hat from promod. and the color rocks!!
well i just made ANOTHER trip to the doctor yet AGAIN . shitty to spend 100 bucks for my own stubborness towards my health. not only do i already like injections, i just thought today that im happy seeing more pills for my sickness( so sick, i know). confirmed that i had minor cinus on top of bronchitis. lets see where my weak body will lead to.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME THEN. I SURE HOPE IM HAPPY DEEP INSIDE.

2009-10-29T22:22:00.005+08:00

29th October 2009
the time ive been waiting for has arrive,
for 28 days i waited for this movie.

THIS IS IT.

Mj is funny
Mj is a perfectionist
Mj likes lollipop
Mj chews gum
Mj knows music
Mj dances well
Mj says" god bless you" alot
Mj likes height
Mj is still a young boy at heart
Mj puts in his best
Mj likes to grab his manhood
Mj carries clothes off well
Mj rocks
Mj is king of pop
LOve lIves FoRever- Michael Jackson
i know i wasnt crazy about someone's music like this before who have touched the lives of many who liked his songs.
his album was one of the first CDs i bought during primary school
i never felt as much emotions while hearing a song before
i definitely cried in the mrt on the way to school on 25th june
i didnt idolise much when he was still here
he is a singer, far far away...
nevertheless, i love his songs
hearfelt, understood.

2009-10-24T04:21:00.005+08:00

another awesome day, finally attended gems.. the english was rather uncomprehensive though it was more like geography. its understanding weather btw. there was this annoying gina showing off his science+geog A* knowledge which in the end proved out wrong.

after school outing saw a sudden change of plans which led to night safari for the halloween celebration. i love american celebrations:)
met up with bf's 20 friends and we headed to there.tix were cheap as there were lobangs.i thought i would be scared of the "ghosts" there, but turned out..they were funny!

i think london dungeon in UK was way worse.you cant touch any of the ghosts neither can you take pics with them. the sizes of the ghosts is also huge(american men). actually im so very afraid of ghosts because when i went to disneyland orlando's haunted mansion and came out.. i was talking to my mom, when suddenly she let go of my hand. i thought she was occupied for a while and when i waited for a response, i realised it was batman's joker beside me. it scared the shit out of me,he followed us out! my mother was actually miles away instead,at then i was only 15.imagine that i literally had knees weak.

took alot of photos with the ghosts and the gang were practically making fun of every one of em'.best stupid thing that happened is there was one girl that came near to our carriage and bf shouted:"prostitute ghost" because she went to touch him and almost everyone laughed. and then another red man ghost shook hands with him and ask him" why you not scared?" however, there were really something supernatural that another carriage saw but we didnt. no further mentioning...

rather fun experience overall.we played "I NEVER" till 2am outside night safari while waiting for cars then headed for supper.

(must wait for photos from friend..)
TOTALLY LOVE THE DAY<3
34.

2009-09-29T00:12:00.005+08:00

F1 RACE...VROOM VROOM!!!

muscular with good built<3> the team of waitresses, all excited to take pic with the 2 ang mohs!

this baby costs S$2millon plus... i think its called bangali or something(i know sounds indian, cos i cant rmb exactly what its called.haha) super rare in the world too!!

ok. so here is my experience in the first time being a waitress... was serving the temasek suite in the f1 where there will be VIP from gov bodies as well as high positions ppl from s'pore as well as neighbouring countires.
everday there would be high-tea, dinner and then supper. so there is 2 turnovers to be done.was in the same suite and same group as zhong. i think he was good being a waiter for the first time, he could carry so many cups alr on the first day which took me only the 2nd day to be daring enough to do so. most ppl there were experinced..only 3 ppl(inc us).

first day there was only the SGP da lao ban that was the vip there, though he didnt stay for long. even if there were ministers, i couldn even know nor rmb...friday was the 1st time i heard the cars... the glass panel showed the start line and the grandstand seats. the view was awesome!! when the cars started, my heart felt the rush. i love speed! didnt know i would like f1 in the first place.. each day i took glimpes of almost all races(*eat snake).

2nd day... the SM- mr goh chok tong came.. and we had to stop service for a while as soon as he came.( i am actually very dumb at knowing who is what M.) we also had to serve the security ppl and the SGP volunteers food. i think they are super lucky and idiotic. they didnt have to pay 7000 bucks to be able to be in the room and eat the same stuff.. k la, the security mostly had drinks, but the SGP ppl really ordered food, and before high tea, they were the ones that were gulping glasses of drinks at the bar. like hello!!! the beverages are for VIPs. not same ranking ppl as us???

last day- i watched some parts of the races..i thought they were shown on tv as well, but i checked with bf, he didnt see any porche race nor subaru race. there was a winner named ringo chong or something, btw he is a singaporean!! and the last race won by a singaporean in 1976 if i didnt rmb wrongly. when the national anthem was played, super patriotic outta sudden...hahah

then the omg thing was .... i served mr lee hsien loong a cup of luke warm water!!!!!

ok, i know its nothing big deal at all to ppl.. but then i was not even in charge of that table.cos only experience ppl served the VVIP tables. but the secuirty personnel asked me to get him a cup of water when he was mingling with other tables.and at first i took normal water for him. the guard said room temperature,.. but i didnt know room temperature means luke warm?

serving him was super scary.. mainly bcos i was nervous serving him, and there were secuirty

personnel directly behind me observing... wooh. my heart literally shook!

my suite wasnt so lucky to see hamilton near.. nor did it have given souvenirs like maclaren suite.but i did saw many big shots.for eg: mr lee kuan yew(which had super much presence, with his high aura), president nathan(where once he just stood infront of me,the distance like you would feel if ppl breathed behind you), mr lee hsien loong, mr goh chok tong, mr ong beng seng(famous hotelier, wife is owner of club21), lord chadlington of dean(i loved his name, so i rmbered him), some datuk from i dunno which country,nobu chef from london, ministers like mr mah bow tan,Dr yacob ibrahim.. some royal highnesses with very long names which i dunno how to pronounce even...

the last day clearing up was till 4am.we had to clear everything out like plates and utensiles..ooh, btw i worked night shift from 12pm-3am daily. so i sleep at 430am and wake up at 10am. my feet hurts wearing covered shoes:(

k,this entire experience was great for me even though i was tired most days. im so happy i can carry a full tray of cups! and i bonded much with other dtrm peeps:)hope my pay will come soon too!

tmr will be full day at work which means covered shoes again. it sucks.

from now on.... slippers will be my favourite.(actually it always is...)

k, THE END<

2009-09-19T00:51:00.018+08:00

take the steering wheel, and... HAVE SOME FUN!!

first day:

sold electrical stuff & earned 40 bucks!

brought mama to chomp chomp after work

first time she went there, happy with the food:)

went to school, played truth with 8jiemei near midnight

second day:

sell electrical stuff part 2

ate lunch with bf at EVERYTHING WITH FRIES, not bad food but nice feel about there,
fetch mama from work half day, to go..
DOG farm.Woof Woof! saw a freaking fat chow chow w purple tongue and mama wanted to buy poodle, but not worth it,
and then to...
PRAWNing!!!the worker there taught us the tricks,
and i held prawns with my damn bare hands, BUT, got snapped on one finger!

total caught:2 big ones, 5 pregnant ones, 3 small ones and 37 abit bigger than normal ones

brought the still kicking prawns back home and cut thier snippers away, freeze it for freshness:)

went ambrosia for dinner, and then i went mini shopping. yesha!

punggol for supper roti prata. YUMMY!

third day:

woke up for sentosa, and wanted to go try thier adventure site,

but then every single portion must pay, so anw, brought ball, kite and then bought sandcastle making set

bf very happy to play like a small kid, but before tt, he dug a big hole in the sand to fit my ass in:(

very lazy to mix good sand and so the sandcastle not very nice at all. haha

then came the good breeze and so played kite, no trees to be stuck onto!

played ball for a while and then rained....

bathed, and then went for dinner at CASA VERDE.

good service, and quality food with quantity as well

caught gamer, pretty dizzy show, but i started to get attracted to somebody's body...

fourth day:

woke up early and then to M'SIA!!!

bf drove, and my mom guided.. destination- malacca

long time never go there,and to our surprise there is 1 new mall...

didnt climb the usual fort, but took some pictures with some new stuff

saw the eye on m'sia, freaking small like some playland carnival

the journey dunno why seemed so tiring

didnt do any much shopping at all

after that went IKEA for dinner and giant for grocery shopping
i parked the car myself with no aid!!!
btw, petrol is really damn cheap in msia

and later it was midnight driving lessons.

i have to say, i disturbed those ppl f*king in the car at EC.cos the car headlight was bright...
so while other ppl were having thier ultimate time, there i was learning parking once again.

then it was to geylang, where he wanted me to learn to drive at crowded places

and i could choose whichever lorong i wanted

i went to one where i saw all the tiongs in low cut bras...

wa sey, dunno implants or push up

haha never go changi for ducks:(

but at least i saw chickens that night.

was a very long day....

fifth day:

had a long sleep and then only had time for a movie...
caught THE UGLY TRUTH, not bad show
and then that caught my eye of the person's body i was saying...
GERARD BUTLER!!! woohoo.. he adds 2nd to my list:) man-ness..
so returned the car,
and then had the best dinner of my life.
whats best about it?

eating the food that you caught!!!
the uncle also taught us to cook prawns in a simple way, no where outside has sold that kind of prawns
so bf cooked it and it was yummy!( ps: guys that can cook is not gay, maybe some of you would find it, but i find it sweet, like c'mon which guy is willing to cook? and can also cook not bad?)
totally enjoyed all the days though it was tiring, everyday sleeping at 2 after everything.
mama enjoyed all her days! im happy to hear that:) and im also happy cos she bought me clothes!!

had a long rotting day today, still feeling neither here nor there,

conclusion of passing tp: even if you passed, doesnt mean you are good on the road, its a whole diff situation, and practice is definitely needed, so if ur family is rich, better get a car..
so anw,tmr gg to go shopping again( which i alr have broken my 6 months of cant shop contract)

btw, yst marks the end of my 1 month no choc contract, and im bulging on it much today alr.

w/o work and with fun, life seems much better.
next week lies swimming with sec friends, hanging out with pri friends, cya grad, hilton job,2 days of work, outing with s&s,and there ends sept.
results will be out pretty soon too.
oct lies a whole 2 weeks of opportunities left for me to go crazy. i hope i continue loving this holiday. but i still have to face the fact that there is work left for me to do. money no matter what makes the world go round. it only depends on the amt specifically
ps: the hot air balloons in the movie, making me cant wait for aus next yr. (keep to ur promise ah boy!)

2009-09-18T18:57:00.003+08:00

WE ALL NEED SOMEBODY TO LEAN ON

when life's goes wrong, there is always somebody out there caring for us. be it an obvious surrounding person or the person you would least expected.

as i carry on my daily routines, there are days which i dread passing and days that i hope will last forever. there are so many things in the world which some might have noticed while other just live by missing out.

when life's gets you down, it is when you thereafter become stronger.

much of us are having the same thoughts these days, it may be a pre-assumption, but i seem to see alot of friends blogging things that i also wish to say.
for LIFE, we either get sick with it, do something about it, or just rot on it.

2009-09-09T23:30:00.007+08:00

SHEDDING,

this dog made my day:) I LOVE CHOW CHOW!!! gonna secretly call my visual dog FLUFFY!!!really thought of getting it...$3800 though and hdb dont allow:(

2009-08-18T12:56:00.003+08:00

say goodbye to my airport pass:( although i always play truant during airport duty, but i think i still do miss doing duties...

went for picnic-ing for the 1st time:) brought along all the barang barang food
this is called "ai qing" sandwich, haha...

setting up the kitefirst time i flew kite!!!:) cant control it at all, got stuck in the tree:(

2009-07-25T23:50:00.004+08:00

WHAT DO YOU SEE?

SEE THE MOON AND THE STARS(SG FLAG), SEE THE...

NDP2009. I LOVED IT! and suddenly, i feel PATRIOTIC.

haha, i took the pledge today,and suddenly i realised, i have not been saying it for nearly 3 years. i thought i had forgotten how to say it since sec 4.

so touched bout the unity of everything, this yr is all bout the chapters SINGAPORE has been thru.

10 chapters in all.

Mark lee was one of the other hosts, and his english is tek kong, stupid and hokkien accented...

next, the jokes were funny, the cheers were fun, and i saw my cca senior being motivator.

hmm, the crumpler look alike bag was not bad.3 ways to carry in all...

songs is what i can rmb, cos most of the other dances was ok..

however, i think this time SOKA(my religion) did a good job,how i knew it was them because, this yr they were recruiting females, and their white dresses with red balls were so cute. hah,but looked rather heavy.

just so everybody knows, and for me to show off(haha) my face have been one of the few kids that waved in the NDP commercial in 1997, then i also participated in some 2 other yrs which i cant particularly rmb.

sad thing was, 1 of the yr, in the chinese newspaper, my friend beside me was photographed on it, but not me!!:( we were wearing golden dresses with red star torchlights:)

yeah so anw, fireworks were not that much.

but overall, i felt I LOVE SINGAPORE at that moment of time.

now, im back home... and hmm.. guess what, i still miss going overseas.

singapore is still too small for me. i need space,i need freedom, i love travelling:)

rambutan-ing

2009-07-12T22:26:00.000+08:00

you dont have to bring me out to the streets,
to walk/shop/eat, im a simple girl still somehow,

just so long you bring me out where there is fun!

so he brought me to pulau ubin on sat, and it was damn fun...!

i didnt eat lunch, didnt see the nice shopping streets, and i practically had lots of bites and dirt over me.

its the 2nd time we went there, and this time it was even better.

the first thing was: we dried our perspiring bodies at the jetty..haha.. sounds gross.

after having dried our bodies, we saw a boar, but it wasnt as fat as the black one we saw the last time. and didnt take picture of it:(

next. went to cycle to the quarry. ya and our bicycle behind have baby seat. so weird.this time managed to cycle up all the hills,as last time when i had single bike, i had to keep pushing. thanks to him to cycle up, my leg mostly put on the stand,haha senang:)

then as we were cycling to the mountain bike adventure like below, we almost ram into the lizard, i think its monitor, because it cant be a komodo. so ya, children were screaming: KOMODO, KOMODO! but i thought komodo only indonesian? i dont think they were singaporean what. and anw,they were sunbathing...

before we took a break, i said i wanted to eat rambutans cos i hadn ate one for long, and then we tried finding the shortest tree to pluck. dont have:(. suddenly after restoring energy with coconut at the rest area, he said: i wanna pluck rambutan, must get back something before we go back, and so.... we went to find long stick, and he tried his first attempt...

he tried throwing the stick up, and then it was stones.. nothing came down but leaves. rambutans are damn stubborn fruits.

and then he carried the coconut tree leaf, which was heavy, long enough but not strong enough. the trees were about 3m and taller? we also wanted to take the jackfruit but white juice came out when we hit it, so maybe its rotten?

finally after somewhile, i got my first rambutan...:)!!!

1 little 2 little 3 little rambutans, 4 little 5 little..... 25 rambutans in all hey!i had sunburnt on my whole face, but he only had rudolf the red nose reindeer.we ate this after dinner.. our fruits of success:)

you dont have to meet up everyday to make it special,

there is also of no need to have an occasion,

simple days tgt makes us closer and happier.

After coming back from holiday, I...

2009-06-29T17:48:00.000+08:00

... am more conscious of my wallet like i was in Italy

... am crediting $1500 from c.a.b cos of shopping

...am beginning to like sceneries as much as i love Disneyland

...am feeling that the weather in Singapore sucks

...am beginning to appreciate how cheap food in singapore is

...am missing my italian brad pitt

...am missing to speak a few phrases of spanish

...am finding my skin dry

...saw the school's toilet poster like same as swiz

...am fatter cos i eat choc daily

BUT nevertheless, .... enjoyed a EXCELLENT time there:):):)

heal the world, make it a better place

2009-06-26T09:32:00.000+08:00

im grieved to hear the news about michael jackson. this is bcos,i did admire him and his songs. though he is accused of molestation, plastic surgery, i still liked him. cardiac arrest, 50, so young.

its these thousand miles..

2009-06-05T13:11:00.000+08:00

i went for tp today,
passed it and was happy.
shivered and cried before the results were out,
abit sad i didnt get the marks i wanted,
looking forward to next whole week of driving.
gg camp till monday,
gg hol on thurs,
taking lots of photos at swiz/italy,
coming back on 3rd week,
rushing projects on that week,
waiting for mst the next,
and im finally done with june.

your birthday would be next, our 2.5 will arrive, and my birthday will come shortly after.
im in a good mood today:)

my 10 cents adventure!

2009-06-02T21:53:00.000+08:00

went for driving after school today and i was already so tired these few days. met up with jo before driving to have dinner then she acc me to CDC. i was real urgent, then i told her, im gonna go toilet illegally again.

here goes, at CDC, you have to pay 10 cents to enter into the toilet disregarding the fact that there is no tissue paper, then you have to pay another 20 cents more to buy a packet. i've ran in the toilet and hid behind the wall partition many times, and so i can recognise the indian uncle.

today he was sweeping the porch of the walkway and i and joanne ran into the toilet. phew saved!! did my peeing, then when we were about to come out, the uncle was already standing outside the female toilet waiting for us. usually he would sit at a spot in between the men and female toilet.. i dashed out, and he stretched his arm across the wall blocking me from gg out any further. then i acted blur by saying many huhs, before he lifted his hand to let me go.

however, jo was still stuck inside and called me from the cubicle. we were like convicts runing away from the police, i had to walk rounds around the school to see where the uncle was. he wanted to sit a couple of times but kept standing up, just as he was about to sit again for the 3rd time, i told jo : run out now, NOW NOW!!! then she dashed out and the uncle OEI her v.loudly for payment.

this uncles is very scary, just for 10 cents entrance fee, he will chase you for it,he did chase me once to the motorcycle area. my gosh damn scary.

I did a preliminary test for driving today and i got 14 points, thats only because i hit the back kerb for 10 points, else i would only get 4 points . my road driving is good, just my circuit parking... i cant wait for friday, wish me luck peeps...!